It’s common knowledge that Paris is a city of art. Some of the world’s most regarded and beloved pieces of art (the Mona Lisa, etc.) in the world reside in Paris’ 150+ museums. But, the creative pulse of the city can’t seem to be contained solely within buildings; it flows onto them and around them. Over the past few months, I’ve photographed a bunch of street art that has caught my eye. Below, you’ll find just a few of the strange and beautiful pieces that the canvas of Paris hosts.
“Often, the fear of not knowing what to do or the fear of doing something wrong stops us in our tracks and keeps us from starting. If we let go of this fear, we can open ourselves up to a much larger world of expression, a world where anything is possible. I believe that there are no mistakes in the creative process. Everything that happens along the way- every dab of paint, every emotion that arises, every brave new choice- is an important ingredient in the final offering. Working from this perspective leaves no room for fear to slip in… there is no wrong way. There are no mistakes. There is only a wide-open playground beckoning your artistic muse to come out and play”- Flora Bowley
On February 10th, I’m beginning artist Flora Bowley’s “Bloom True” online painting course. You may recognize her art on Papaya products (especially if you’re from Philly and shop at El Quetzal). I would love for you to join me in this course! I’m giving away a voucher to take the class FOR FREEEEEE (worth $273USD). All you have to do is comment on this post and share why you would like to take it, and how you think it could help you live your passion. Those who respond will have their name (literally) placed in a hat, from which my boyfriend will pick the winner.
It’s all online, and you can do the exercises on your own time, at your own pace. Check out http://braveintuitiveyou.com/offerings-workshops/e-course/f-a-q/ for more information on the course itself. I’ll be selecting the winner on Saturday, February 8th, sometime in the afternoon (so there’s still time to pick up painting supplies if you need ’em), so submit ASAP!
I’ve done something similar to this before- below, I’ve shared my experience.
My first time intuitive painting was with Damini Celebre, who holds intuitive painting classes in the Philadelphia area. This was during a time in my life filled with big, challenging changes and tons of uncertainty. I was working at a very high-stress job where I had to maintain emotional stability for the sake of my clients, and wasn’t really allowing myself to think about my troubles, let alone feel what was going on internally. Damini had us lay on the floor before painting, and she began to play a drum while leading us through a meditation to connect to our intuition. She encouraged us to listen to intuition, not the mind, and pick colors based on impulse, not detailed planning. The first round of painting was channeling water, and the second was air. I found myself making very conscious decisions, deciding that it had to be “tree-like” and working to “correct mistakes”.
I can’t remember exactly what Damini said to me, but something made me realize I was being way too disconnected from my instincts. For the next element, fire, I left go more, let myself feel the colors I wanted to bring forth. After painting for a while, she came up to me and asked, “Does it feel complete?” In my mind, there was a resounding, “no”! I took a big paint brush, dunked it in black paint, and began to streak it on the canvas, blending some, but letting some drip down. I began to fling paint on. I felt extremely satisfied by this.
The final element, earth, was where I really connected. As I was painting, my motions became very rhythmic, my brush flowing, blending waves of different color together. Damini asked me what I was doing, and I told her, “I have to make it blend”. She smiled, and asked me why they had to blend, and what part of my life that might reflect. I then had a “HOLY SHIT!” realization moment- my life was so uncertain and chaotic, that I desperately wanted to smooth out anything that I could control-I wanted everything to be in sync, and harmonious. I was trying to correct it: the colors, and my life. I then began flinging more paint of varying colors at the canvas, diving into the experience of chaos. I ended, however, by painting a big, black line vertically on the paper. Everything was nuts all around it, but this big, stable pillar was holding something up. My mind? My sanity? The stripe was, and is, incredibly soothing to me. I realized I needed more grounding in my life, and made an intention to make time to take better care of myself.
I don’t know that I would have come to this realization through words. Color and spontaneous allowed for a much more unconscious discovery; it brought forth things that my conscious, verbal mind was very good at encrypting. We ended with a closing ceremony honoring ourselves and our innate wisdom. I’m very excited to begin the intuitive painting process again, and I hope you’ll join me!
For most of my creative life, I’ve fallen into something I’ve named the Perfectionistic-Anxiety Cycle. I’ve experienced it with almost anything I very deeply care about doing. Maybe you’ve experienced it, too- it is as follows:
1.Start a new thing. This could be a homework assignment, an instrument, a NEW YEARS RESOLUTION, anything. It’s really exciting, and you can’t wait to dive right in. HOORAY NEW THING.
2. Consistently practice the thing…for a little while.
3. Life gets in the way; practice falls by the wayside. Maybe you’re tired from work, maybe you already practiced yesterday and feel a day off won’t hurt. Either way, time starts passing by.
4. Eventually come back to the practice, but notice that you’ve “fallen behind”. Maybe you’ve forgotten things, noticed a gap in your knowledge, or have some impending deadline that you do not think you’ll be ready for.
5. Anxiety about performance ensues. “I screwed up! It’s too late! I’ll never be ready in time for the deadline!” This can come in nagging little droplets, or like a raging monsoon drowning your hopes and dreams.
6. Pull further away from the thing to reduce anxiety. “It’s okay, I didn’t like thing that much anyway.” This is also a time where hours of activities designed to distract occur, i.e- spending several hours browsing the internet.
7. Begin to engage with a new thing, feeling that *this time* it’ll be different- a fresh start.
…And it repeats, ad infinitum.
I was always perplexed about why I did this with the things I loved most. For a while, I was convinced I had ADHD. It was only during my time studying psychology in graduate school that I realized that it was anxiety. I was so anxious about doing the things I loved well that I would rather not do them at all if I felt I my efforts were not doing the art/goal justice. I’d rather do nothing than fail.
But that’s the thing. If you wait to do something until it’s perfected, then you’ll never do a damn thing.
Our goals, visions, and resolutions can be big- as they should be! But if the steps to reach them aren’t small and manageable, its far less likely that change will be integrated into our daily lives. I have shared this idea with many of my therapy clients, but only recently have really been putting it into practice.
1. Still have your big goals, but let go of attachment to their outcome (yoga blogs on this forthcoming).
2. Break the goals into small pieces that can easily be attained interwoven into your daily routine. An example of this-
Big goal- Play guitar on stage in front of other humans.
Smaller goal- Practice guitar every day for an hour and have fun doing it.
If this goal is still not being met, break it down even further:
Even smaller goal- Play guitar for thirty minutes a day.
Still coming up short?
Smallest goal- Pick up the f*****g guitar up and maybe move your hands on it at least once a day, even when you’re feeling anxious and discouraged, and even if you feel it doesn’t sound great.
So, the smallest doesn’t seem terribly ambitious, does it? BUT, if you make the task so simple that it becomes routine to just hold the the guitar every damn day, the likelihood of beginning to practice increases. Building habits, especially ones you ENJOY (but continuing even on days when you’re not so into it) are key in growing your skills. Especially if you are completely immersed in the activity without focusing on the outcome/future. Worrying about perfection takes energy away from the thing you’re trying to perfect. If you practice mindfully and consistently, you may wake up one day and “suddenly” be skilled at your thing.
So, readers- have you experienced this cycle? How do you handle it? What is the thing you want to perfect? How would you further break down your goals to make them more attainable?
Aside from the obvious reasons why one might want to move to Paris (beauty, chocolate, art, poodles, functional public transportation), I’ve come here to perform a giant experiment. It’s pretty simple- I’m going to see if devoting my life to the things that matter most (and make me feel most alive) will help me become the person I want to be.
Many of these things I write about below absolutely could have done at home. But, as a perfectionistic procrastinator, I recognized the opportunity to move to Europe as an opportunity to eliminate my recurring distractions and excuses for my avoidant behavior. Here, I have the time to do the things that matter most to me. Now that I’m settled in, I could not successfully argue otherwise.
I do not want to waste this opportunity; So, I’ve written down exactly what I want to do while abroad- . How I will live, what I will do, and what I want to become. This is my plan to live my passions.
In the next year, I plan to…
4) Take advantage of my location and explore the world. My wanderlust and desire for new experiences has been steadily rising for years. I want to wander through the markets of Marrakech, get bundled up and see the Northern Lights, dip my feet in the Mediterranean from multiple different countries’ coast lines. I want to find new inspiration and ideas.
3) Research and experiment with ways to cultivate creativity through different media. I want to become an expert on ways to unleash creativity. In my work as a clinician, I always felt that unleashing creativity and using creative endeavors as a way to facilitate sublimation could help people in pain find agency, accomplishment, and emotional freedom. I often wish I studied art therapy. This will be my independent study. I will be the guinea pig, but I invite you, the reader, to experiment along with me.
2)Deepen my understanding of yoga through practice, reading, and reflection. I also want to integrate more creative development into my teaching.
1) Devote time EVERY SINGLE DAY to practicing music, and become proficient enough to play on stage without issue. This is the single most important reason I’ve left everything I’ve established;this means so much to me, that in the past, it was easier to not devote time to it than devote a smaller amount of time and risk failure. Though I have a larger goal, the main emphasis will be to do it every day- to be with it, with out attachment to the outcome.
So, readers, I invite you to publicly state the dreams and passions closest to your heart- to put it out there, to allow your vision into the mind and hearts of others, and we collectively witness and support one another as we move into action. I would be honored and excited to read what you would like to become.